I recently attended a magical retreat.
I was in the desert at a beautiful
resort with the most wonderful women.
We took a hike in the desert. Each woman had walked her own road to land next to me on the path. As we were walking, the question arose once again, as it was a common question during the retreat, “If you woke up tomorrow and could do whatever you wanted, what would it be?”
The first time I was asked this question was with the voice of love by my coach was 2 years ago. She asked me this question from a place of truth and the power of the human spirit. Admittedly, I did not know how to respond. I had never thought of this as an option. My life for so long had been dictated by call schedules and an ever-flowing inbox that it was not ever possible to do what I wanted.
Or so I thought.
In my past, I have been told that if I loved 20% of my job, I would not burn out. This was my interpretation, but I am pretty sure that this is the underlying concept.
I was saddened that the career I had fought for and yearned for as a young girl was reduced to the measly 20% I loved.
Physicians are dreamers.
We dream of the day we walk across the stage with our degree, the day we finish residency and the first day of our dream job. It was those dreams that sparked a fire within us and gave us the courage to take on the requirements to become a physician.
Day by day, we dropped our dream of a full and happy life like crumbs on the path we walked. Subconsciously we hoped that the little girl who had an imagination and a full spirit would follow those crumbs and catch up.
I know for me, the 20% I love, is not enough.
I want more.
I have found more.
Dreamers don’t settle. Dreamers do not accept the 20%. Rather, they seek with ruthless love the full life they desire. Every physician is a dreamer and has the power to find the child within herself to walk the journey with her.
The greater part of all of us humans knows exactly the life we want and how to build it. The first step is to let go of the current mindset and dream with the ruthless love you have for yourself. No one else can do this for you. We all have the innate power to be who we are destined to become.
Back to current time, on the trail at the retreat with the wonderful women. I had an answer to the question, “Exactly what I am doing now.”
I smiled, looked to the sky and felt immense gratitude.
I love all of my job……all of it.
My dream is that every physician will look to the sky with the same gratitude for the gift they have been given and the life they have created, curated and live.
Life is short and precious. None of us know how long we have and at what capacity we will live. We have the choice to keep dropping crumbs or to take on a new strategy comprised of joy, love and a lot of really amazing dreams.
With ruthless love, ask yourself this question…..If you could wake up tomorrow and do anything you wanted to do, what would it be?
Keep asking yourself this question until you are filled so full of excitement and joy…..that is how you will know you have arrived at your true answer.
I have been where you are - I had always chosen stay on the same safe path. Then, one day, I believed in myself enough and that I was worth it enough to finally start listening to the inner voice that had been calling to me to take a huge leap into the unknown, to bet on myself with so much might - that I could be my most important patient and make any dream a reality. It is amazing to follow your inner voice and dream big.